Wow, look at me, it's a real entry! Woohoo! How I managed to pry my little sister away from the computer is beyond me, but hey who really cares anyway...

I am so fucking miserable right now! What the hell is going on here?! I am the game player. I win. Am I growing soft or something? Did I happen to acquire some feelings, and they're getting in the way? Yeah, and pigs sprouted some wings and flew by my window last night. Get real! I miss the substance and stability of it all. I'm breaking down. My shell is being constantly gnawed at. It's been seven months, what the hell is wrong? That's too short. I'm leaving, what does it matter?! So many wrapped around my fingers, so many to play with, and I want none. Only that, which remarkably enough, I can't really have. I'm tired of flakes. I'm tired of the lies. I'm tired of waiting. I want my life back! I don't want to be on hold any longer. I have five months to go. Then everything will be a fresh start. No more wondering, no more guessing. I will have what I want, it will be as it should. Just five months...

Locked inside this hole I am. My future unforeseen. Lost in utter chaos spent. Never knowing what they mean.
It hurts; I hurt
I cry at night, I sleep my days. My heart is empty, nothing, it weighs.
It lies; I lie
The falsities are to myself, to trick my absent mind. Hopelessly I will for them, to ever be so kind.
It's dying; I'm dying
The light is fading from my eyes, I'm clenching from the fears. My efforts have caused me wasted cries, all emulated by my tears.
It's lost; I'm lost
There's nothing left for me to be, the darkness is complete. There's nothing left for them to see, I've failed my final feat.
I'm sinking now into despair.
I'm losing now, but I don't care.
It will all be over oh so soon. As I sink to my knees, and cry to my moon...
It's hopeless; I'm hopeless