Well, I guess just basically same shit different day for me.. I'm supposed to be on TAC Detail right now, but since I am running around Post I get my escape.. Nothing too drastically exciting has been going on. Just the basics and the never ending decision making that makes every day life more of a torment than a blessing.. Hopefully I will be home soon enough to escape the drudgeries of every day existence here. My time is almost as pointless now as it was before. Pretty shameful, but full of merit.. An aching desire to return to my home is beginning to overwhelm me like I never thought it could.. I am in dire need of a release of some sort.. I need to be on the outside looking in, not on the inside staring out of my cage. I miss 'civilian' clothes, I miss being able to go out, being able to stay up past nine every night. The little things bring me down, and I am just about to go crazy. Most of all I miss my little sister and him though. Without those two I feel lost. I talk to him every day for hours upon end, and it still doesn't feel like it's enough. As for my little sister, today is her sixteenth birthday, and I feel horrible because I can't be there for her. He was though, and I am forever indebted to him for it. He knew how much it meant to me. ::A soft smile caresses her lips:: He means so much to me, and always has.. I just never knew.. Soon I won't have to live with this agony of being alone. I'm not truly alone anyway I suppose.. There is always someone, whether I admit it or not.. This was not a planned entry, just one of those spur of the moment kind of deals and I should have put more thought into it.. Soon, there might be something worth reading. Who knows.. I miss them...